twelve minutes
7:41 pm, Tuesday, Mar. 04, 2008

it doesn't take long to remind me where i stand, how i feel. i can delude myself all i want into thinking i can take it or leave it. but delusions aren't worth the ether they are imagined on. and one quick phone call, one little combination of words from you and that imagined nonchalance is gone. if i got back half as much, one tenth as much, some teeny little portion of this feeling i'd consider myself the luckiest.

i'm trying to remember it's all about enjoying what it is. and it is something.