you say it's your birthday
10:40 am, Monday, Mar. 14, 2005

For the first time in months I have my own private and reliable internet connection again.

And for the first time in months we were supposed to meet online.

And I had something planned.

But you never showed.

Though you were certainly there. I saw your traces in the usual places.

You're making it easier and easier to let go. After all, you display such a perfect example.

It's okay. Really. I don't know what I expected or why I even expected anything.

Maybe trying to stay friends was the wrong decision.

Maybe I just didn't want to admit I already knew.